Sixteen years apart, same gesture. From the baby hand that once fit inside mine… to the young man’s hand that now covers it with care.
This morning Jack started his usual request as soon as he saw me walk out of my room, “Can I have Ovaltine……?” then he paused mid sentence. He looked at me, really looked, smiled warmly, and said,
“Good morning, Mom. How’d you sleep?”
That tiny shift – from asking to seeing me – stopped time. His tone was soft, his expression genuine, and for a moment, the world felt steady again.
For those who are new here: Jack is neurodivergent. His diagnosis shapes how he moves through the world – how he communicates, how he processes, how he connects. It also means our life has been built around appointments, advocacy, routines, and a thousand invisible tasks that never make it into a photo.
And yes, sometimes grief still catches me off guard. The things he misses out on – the sports, the school dances, the driver’s license, the cool car – the things other teenagers slide into without effort. I feel those losses. I feel them for him. I feel them for me.
But then there are mornings like today, when clarity arrives in the smallest gesture. When I’m reminded that while his path is different, his heart is extraordinary. Jack loves deeply and fiercely. He’d bubble wrap his Grammy and put her on a shelf if she’d let him. He’s protective, tender, competitive, hilarious – a big tough Viking with a soft center.
And at seventeen, he’s already stepping up to take care of his Grammy and me. Not because he has to. Because that’s who he is. As hard as our life can be, these moments remind me that love grows up, but it never outgrows its touch.
My Viking. My life gift. My reason to keep moving forward with gratitude and hope. ❤️
This morning Jack started his usual request as soon as he saw me walk out of my room, “Can I have Ovaltine……?” then he paused mid sentence. He looked at me, really looked, smiled warmly, and said,
“Good morning, Mom. How’d you sleep?”
That tiny shift – from asking to seeing me – stopped time. His tone was soft, his expression genuine, and for a moment, the world felt steady again.
For those who are new here: Jack is neurodivergent. His diagnosis shapes how he moves through the world – how he communicates, how he processes, how he connects. It also means our life has been built around appointments, advocacy, routines, and a thousand invisible tasks that never make it into a photo.
And yes, sometimes grief still catches me off guard. The things he misses out on – the sports, the school dances, the driver’s license, the cool car – the things other teenagers slide into without effort. I feel those losses. I feel them for him. I feel them for me.
But then there are mornings like today, when clarity arrives in the smallest gesture. When I’m reminded that while his path is different, his heart is extraordinary. Jack loves deeply and fiercely. He’d bubble wrap his Grammy and put her on a shelf if she’d let him. He’s protective, tender, competitive, hilarious – a big tough Viking with a soft center.
And at seventeen, he’s already stepping up to take care of his Grammy and me. Not because he has to. Because that’s who he is. As hard as our life can be, these moments remind me that love grows up, but it never outgrows its touch.
My Viking. My life gift. My reason to keep moving forward with gratitude and hope. ❤️
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